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I don't know why, but I really thought he would say yes. I thought I had him. So, when he said no, I was really, really pissed. He "just can't take the thought of a nose piercing" Fuck you. You have all the control. I have to go to church (and I am way beyond agnostic you pathetic pussy, you can't even get throughout the day without needing to believe that there is someone out there "greater" than you who gives a shit)and I can't go anywhere without your approval, I can't express myself the way I want to. Well guess what. I have no control. I can't withhold anything more of myself, or take anything from you that will get you as pissed as I am now. Well guess what? I am going to make you pissed. Sunday, you are going to be enraged at how late we are before we get to church. And conversation. Stunted. I can't appear to immature now can I? That would defeat the purpose. It has to be subtle, but deep reaching. I have been watching what I eat lately, but I am so going to up it. I hope I lose so much weight so fast you can't believe it. And I hope you get worried. Because you can't control that now can you? Suck that bitch. You think you have won? I don't know if I can actually do it, but in the end I want you to promise me anything I want. And when I tell you what I want, I want you to be surprised and shocked. I want you to realize that oh yes, I am unreasonable. I am a bitch. And I am going to get what I want. I want you to realize that. I can be stubborn, and you know what they say. The end justifies the means.
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Posted on December 07, 2006 @ 9:59 pm
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It has been a while since I updated. Today after school I went to Cool Beans with Kalli, and then the Jr. Friends meeting where I ate four pieces of pizza and some cookies. After that we went to Boarders,where I got in trouble for going without asking persmission. After that we made a short stop at Blockbuster to rent American Pie. Then my evening went downhill.
We went back to my house and made grilled cheese and tomato soup. And I went to the bathroom and threw it up. And Kalli knew. (I didn't lie about the stuff stuck in my teeth though, I am not Lisa) And she got upset and depressed. It was instantly noticeable. I tried acting chipper, hoping she would just forget about it. (The second time today I have done that, man am I on a roll or what?) Obviously that didn't work, and she decided she didn't want to spend the night and wanted to go home. And I feel like such and idiot! And I am so incredibly depressed right now, I really want to cry. I prolly am going to later too. I am suck a phuckup. And while we were at Boarders Jill told me on the phone that we were meeting dad for lunch and just before Kalli left we made plans to do something before three. But now I can't, and that is only going to casue strain. And I feel like shite. I don't know what to do. And I don't want her to be pissed, but it isn't like she doesn't have a reason not to be. And now she is prolly going to think I am brushing her off tomorrow, and that is the last thing I want her to think now. I only have a min. of internet left.
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Posted on November 30, 2006 @ 3:10 pm
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I was sick last Monday and Tuesday, and since then have had a nasty cough that has kept me up at night. On Thanksgiving or the day after (I cannot remember) my youngest sister Mia was sick, throwing up and had diarrhea. On Sunday, my dad got sick. Starting Monday night it was my mom's turn. Monday afternoon my relatives came to visit. My Aunt Kathy and Uncle Daryl flew to IL from CA to visit family (that is where all my family is from, IL, around where I live in MI, and Uncle Daryl and Aunt Kathy and their two kid are from CA) So, my Aunt Kathy, Uncle Daryl, and Uncles Jerry and Calvin came to visit. I had to give up my bed, so I slept with my sister Jill, but my coughing was so bad she went to sleep on my parent's bedroom floor at about 1 am. Wednesday I woke up to get ready for school to find my Uncle Daryl pucking, he had caught the bug. I called home from my cellphone during passing time before sixth hour Trig. to ask to be picked up. About ten minutes after I got home, the liquid diarrhea started. Then I started throwing up. Even water wouldn't stay down. I got hardly any sleep last night. It wasn't cool. I hate being sick.
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Posted on November 19, 2006 @ 1:30 pm
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I have a runny nose. But mostly only in one nostril. I hate runny noses, especially when they dry out the skin right below your nose. And then because your nose is blocked you talk funny, and I am just getting over a soar throat, so I already talked slightly off to begin with.
I also had to rake this hill in my front yard that my parents call the burm today. While it was snowing. Because the leaves kill the grass. Get over it. And besides, if you wanted the leaves off the ground, you could have assigned that shitty chore before it started to snow. I might be just a little (but admittedly not much) less hostile about it if you didn't wait until now.
I also hate the fact that my parents (my dad really) has a router where he can automatically turn off my internet at whatever times he determines "appropriate". I have from 5 am until 10 pm on Monday through Thursday, 5 am to 1 am on Friday, 5 am until 11 am, and then from 1 pm until 1 am on Saturday and for sundays I get from 5 am until 11 am, and again from 1 pm until 10 pm. What a bastard. I LIVE on the internet. So I usually do my hw during the weekends when I don't have internet, right in the middle of the day when I am usually trying to make planes with mis amigas about going out. But then we have to get interrupted and use a different means of communication.
Speaking of doing hw...while waiting until the 1 pm internet return time, I have been doing my Trig hw. My teacher is an idiot and I hate Trig proofs.
I also hate myself. I have been eating like a pig lately. At the beginning of the school year I was watching what I ate so well, and exercising. Now I am pigging out and not exercising. So starting tomorrow my friend Kalli and I are going to get super competitive again. We are going to be good skinny people from now on. I have to stop eating breakfast. I usually have about 300 calories by the end of the school day now, and that is soooooo bad! It needs to be about 100 max instead. So I am going to work on myself. But before I die on the exercise bike today I need to spend a few more agonizing minutes on Trig and then clean my room. What "they" say about working hard for what you want is true. I have to work hard to lose weight, to get good grades, to keep my room clean, and I really need to get out my violin today and work on that too.
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My throat has hurt since yesterday morning and progressively got worse over the day. I woke up at about three this morning feeling like absolute shit. When my alarm went off at 5:25, I could have made it to school, but I really didn't want to. Today would be the first day I missed all year. So I told mom I wasn't feeling so hot and that I would try for the second half of the school day. But 8:00 or so, I realized that that wasn't going to happen. My head was throbbing, it hurt to swallow, I was coughing occasionally and I felt like I had to puke. After finally figuring out how to work the thermometer (it is hard! There are all these sequences you have to push to simply take your temp vs. look at your temp history ect.) I had a temp of 100.4, low grade. I went back to bed until 12:15.
When I woke up I check my email and discovered Kalli, my friend whose house I had spent the night at on Saturday came home early from school during third hours. So we probably caught something from each other. I am supposed to babysit tonight. I want to make the money and It would only be from 5:30 to 7, but I don't know if I can. My mom might not let me, and the little girl is only 4 months old or so. I also have two tests tomorrow. Yey.
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Posted on November 03, 2006 @ 3:25 pm
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It has been forever since I updated. So I am going to summarize. I got my ear pierced up in the cartilage. I am pretty happy about that. Homecoming sucked and on Amanda's birthday we decorated her locker in sticky notes covered in stick figures in sundry sexual positions, it was sweet. I was pretty pleased with myself. That Thursday(we didn't have school on Friday the 27th)Kailli, Lisa, Amanda, Stephani, Amy Williams and I were picked up from school in a Limo and then ate at Lone Star and saw the Prestige in theaters. The plot was so intricate, it was amazing. Friday morning I was picked up from Amanda's and went to Chicago. I liked the city and I saw my Uncle Matt.
Yesterday, el dia de los muertos, November 2, we had a bomb threat. Some eight grader at Ore Creek the middle school wrote a bomb threat that also included the High School. Therefore, both schools were evacuated. And I was next in line to use the quesadilla maker in Spanish. The entire school stood on the football field for twenty minutes in the first snow of the year (It didn't stay on the ground though) before the buses came. Then we sat on the buses for 45 or so minutes. Kailli and I shared a seat with two other girls and the two of us watched a couple of A.F.I music videos and listened to A.F.I., and Manson too. After we got back inside the entire school went back to second hour for about thirty min. before going to fourth hour, missing third hour entirely. Kalli and I didn't feel like going to fourth hour though, so we skipped and went to all the lunches.
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Posted on September 21, 2006 @ 8:26 pm
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I have never tired to just post pics here before and my computer is really gay, so lets see if this works. It won't let me do this in email, so maybe better luck here. This one is cute, does it work? Lets find out.
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Posted on September 06, 2006 @ 3:02 pm
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Today was my first day of School. I am now officially an upperclassman. I would rather it be summer. I wasn't nervous or excited last night, but I really hate waking up to an alarm and I kept waking up during the night to check the time. And now I am tired and have a headache. It really sucks.
I ended up getting up this morning at 5:50 but when I went downstairs to take a shower, I had to wait for my brother to finish. I emailed Kalli and opened a Dr. Pepper before picking Lisa up and driving to school at 7.
Because I changed my schedule over the phone, I didn't know the classroom number of Ms. Tyer's French II class. I ended up having to ask Chucky (Chuck Hughes, Principal) and he brought me over to a list of names taped inside the glass at the office. I could take it from there (the list was of your first hour) but he insisted on finding my name for me. He even seemed convinced that a Meaney had graduated the year before. No, I would know.
I had that class with Caitlin (who showed up to class late) but we have assigned seats. Second hour Spanish III I have with Kalli. Despite the fact that we share the class with Natalie Savoy, we are going to have fun. And Andy phucking Mann, back off, Kalli and I don't like you or want to talk to you. (Too bad in science it looks like you and Jess Highfeild, and Kalli knows how much that pains me.) Third hour I have Sheidler, who is awesome, with Lisa. Daren Teal is also in that class and friendly with Lisa. I have now ordered Lisa to hang out with Daren so I can get to know him too. Fourth hour science, sucks. As afore mentioned, I have no friends. The only prospects are looking to be Chelsea Champlin, Andy and Jess Highfeild. Lunch is even worse. I have absolutely NO friends. I think I am going to sit with Becca, even though we haven't really talked for a couple years. Fifth hour I have with Stephani. Brit Lit might not be so bad. Brooke Arington is in that Class, Oh, Jay Combes too, but there are some guys that might be funny. One goes by Handsome, the other Precious. There is also this Senior named Greg and he is either gay, bi or very metro. He is cute too, and I think he likes to read. Trig with Mrs. Richards. OH MY GOD. I couldn't follow about half of what was going on. I can only imagine what the German foreign exchange student behind me thought.
After school Kalli, Caitlin, Amanda, Lisa and I sat around and talked for about 20 minutes before we all left. I had to drive to Spranger field to pick up Eric and I dropped Caitlin off at the library. I am now finishing my Dr. Pepper and writing this. After which I will watch Eddie Izzard. Yey for British comedian transvestites!
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Posted on September 04, 2006 @ 2:55 pm
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I was up until 3:30 last night, working on this, reading a tiny bit of smut and something else...I can't remember though. I set my alarm for 5:15 because at 5:23 I was going to be a proud new owner of an AIF poster. I was so pissed at myself for sleeping through the alarm for two hours before waking up at 7:15! And by that time my poster was gone. Luckily there are two of the same posters for sale that I have to buy at 9:30. After being pissed at myself I slept in until 1:24, a new summer record.
I was feeling pretty shitty about the whole, no poster, no Eddie Izzard video in the mail because it is Labor Day, when I checked my email. And my best friend, who is a genius, Kalli, had figured out why this layout wasn't working. And I have been working on my lj ever since. I think Kalli is out shopping for pants right now. We are planning to get together later today because we are going to pull an all-nighter so that tomorrow night we can get to sleep before, in my case 3 am for the first day of school. Yey! Not.
But as a note of interest, Steve Irwin died yesterday. He was stung by a stingray. It is kinda weird to think of someone who was such a daredevil and constantly getting away with doing crazy shit, as now dead.
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Posted on September 04, 2006 @ 1:13 am
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Well, this is my first entry under my new s/n. I am going to try to do this entire lj by myself. (Hahah. Asking Kalli doesn't count. As long as I actaully kinda do it, it counts.)
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